You aren't good enough. That's it, that's pretty much all I have to say. But don't take it the wrong way, I like you, I really do. But I'll say it again, you aren't good enough. BUT...... Neither am I, and it's a good thing. Let me explain.
I go through these times where I think to know God-I, for some reason or another (I'm human) think I have to somehow do things to please and know Him. I have to do all the right things (Once I gave up meat, and soft drinks...I know), not do bad things, and if I just keep that up, he'll seeing me being "good enough" doing all these "good" things and he'll be all like.
"Nathan way to go man! I totally love you now"
And I'll be all like.
"NIIIICE!!!! I knew if I did enough good things you'd notice me"
But I think I get it all wrong when I live with this mentality, I fool my self into thinking all God wants is for me to be good. And that's not to say God doesn't desire me to be holy. But I think my priority's are all out of wack! First and foremost God wants ME. Let that sink in He wants US just us! Not my or your good works, or lack of bad habits but just US!
The bible says "He has made us fearfully and wonderfully" and that he SO loved us he gave his life for us. Not the ones who deserved it (no one does) but just all of us. What is this saying? HE LOVES ME AND YOU, HE WANTS TO KNOW US. And while we get so caught up in trying to do the right thing, we either fail and feel like we aren't good enough to know him or be near him, or we end up giving up something silly and thinking we did it all on our own!
So what needs to happen? We need to stop worrying about being good, but worry about knowing God. I will most likely be the only Christian who will tell you this, but stop trying to be good, you're not and never will be, be bad and embrace the fact that you can't do anything about it, but be bad and run after knowing God with all your heart, the other stuff will follow. But FIRST just know him. He loves you and me so much, he doesn't even care where we have been what we have done. He knows everything about you, He just wants us to know him.
So let's not wait until we think we are good enough to know God to get to know him, lets just let him love us right where we are, and he'll take care of the rest.
And gooooooodness that's a weight off.
He loves me and you. A lot...Get to know the one who made and loves you no matter what.